self help

Since Darren passed away I have been reading books for surviving the loss of a loved one. I have read about the stages of mourning. I am sure it is helpful or I wouldn't keep seeking out helpful hints on how to survive my pain and emptiness. I went to the bookstore the other day looking for something for Josh and I came upon a small littleittybitty book titled, "How to be totally miserable" by John Bytheway. and.... Bytheway is Shane's (grandson) middle name because DeShelle is married to Matt whose relatives are Bytheway's. hmmm, interesting small world. So as I was reading this ittybitty book I read " Some things in this world act, and others are acted upon. Happy people act. Miserable people are acted upon. Thinking about your problems without doing anything about them will ensure that you remain miserable and emotionally groggy. People who jog or take a walk around the block know that moving around and getting their blood flowing somehow gives their brain the energy to sort out all the stuff that's going on. Sometimes even mowing the lawn is great therapy for getting depression off your turf. Happy people get the sun in their hair and the wind in their face. They listen to the birds, smell the flowers, feel the breeze, and suddenly things seem a little better. Those who feel miserable inside often stay inside: those who want to get the misery out of themselves get themselves out of the house and find something to do. " yikes, baby steps. If it weren't for the grandkids I wouldn't get out, soooo, I need to start getting out. When I visited Colorado I felt good about being out, when Darren's friends have come by and I go out, I feel alot better, when I go see family I feel alot better, soooo maybe there is something to this getting out and getting the blood flowing to the brain. Darren, I miss you and feel so bad that you are not here for birthdays, Thanksgiving, Christmas or for any other time a get together is warranted. I know you would want me to get up and out to keep the blood to my soul flowing. I love you and miss you! mom