Today would have been a sushi day with you. I love and miss you!

mom

memorial picnic

You are always on my mind. We had a bbq to celebrate your life and 30th birthday. It was a bittersweet day for all of us. Balloon release was just a way for us to say we love and miss you.

Alot of friends and family showed up to show their love and support. It was a fun filled day and an emotional roller coaster. love you and miss you.

mom

YOUR 30TH

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I LOVE AND MISS YOU!

MOM

year mark's are a time for reflection and memories of who you miss and who brought joy and happiness in your life. my sadness tells me how much I love and miss you. appreciation is for the time I did share with you. i love and miss you Darren, wish you were here, love to you always,

mom

year marks

Bitter sweet memories. Today you were married a year ago to the day not date, that will be tomorrow. It was a happy day for you and I am sure you looked forward to many happy years together with your wife. We have more one year anniversaries coming up and I am finding myself sad beyond my plan of sadness. I guess I wanted to gauge or control where I would be with my loss of you. It is impossible to predict day to day how I can make it through without hearing your voice, getting a phone call or just know that you will be there at the next activity. The best way I can describe it is just empty space that nothing can fill. Soon we will be remembering Dennis' wedding and how for some that day is the last day they saw you alive. I was fortunate to see you the Sunday after when you came over and we played that silly solitaire game. I remember the hug good-bye. You put your arm around my shoulder and I put my arm around your waist. ( I remember thinking how tall and skinny you were). I walked you and your wife out the front and watched you walk up the lane (with your bounce) and off you went, the last time I saw you. I am joyful when I think of the years we had together. I am thrilled for the experiences we had together. I wouldn't have wanted to miss any one of them. We laughed, yelled, chatted, talked and learned from our mistakes. Our imperfections were perfect mother and son bond. I miss you and hope like heck you are here with me for the next couple of months. (keep an eye on David he needs it right now) I love you and miss you! mom

some of my favorite pictures!

a move

We moved Don and Saundra and the boys today. Darren you were missed. I thought about you more then once.

9 months

Today the newscaster said "fabulous day" another example how day to day life goes on. Darren it has been 9 months to the day and date since you died. I have read through some of my past posts and not much has changed, it is still hard, it is still sad, it is still painful, it is not much different.... it just keeps going on. The sun is still pretty to see in the morning, the grandkids are still fun to be around, there are still birthdays to be celebrated, games to go to, books to be read, laundry to be done, roof leaks to be repaired, oil changes on the cars, see what I mean, day to day just keeps on going. Can the soul stop, can the spirit stop, can the emotions stop, will the empitness ever feel better. I think not. It will just be there, something to just get use to. I love you and miss you!

6th folder, 6th picture, David after checking rain damage.