I was sitting on the deck and in my mind I was having a discussion of sorts with someone(no names) and all of a sudden you were standing next to me and said "I didn't do it on purpose". I have had many hard conversations in my head because of unanswered issues about your death. Some will never be answered but finally I received the answer I needed. It's not a relief, nothing about your passing brings me relief, but, it does stop one of the questions I have had in my minds conversations. Thank you for watching over me.
You were a joy and pleasure to be around. I still say challenging but that is what made it so awesome to be your mom. I always have wished I could live without worrying what others think and just be free. I am working on that and remembering your words and example.
Love,
mom
