The worst words

It has taken me awhile to want to post anything but I decided I needed to share some of the worst words I have ever heard. The first worst words in my life I have ever heard is,,,,in a whisper on the phone "mom Darren's at the coroners." The second worst words I have ever heard in my life are,,,, screaming,unaudible,hard to understand,,, I had to say Beck just give me one word, take a deep breathe just give me one word, I heard"Kendall" I said ok give me another word, "he's dead", I screamed with her. The third worst words I have ever heard are,"David has colon cancer" , the fourth worst words I have ever heard, is " she's gone" my mom had passed away 3 days before Christmas. Strength is a state of mind. I know we all have a story to tell, I know we all have our own stories and that they are life. I know there will be more "worst words" in my life time. My story may be the worst words for others to hear.

I miss Darren and I miss my mom. I didn't know Kendall very well but the few times I was around him I found him very friendly and funny. I wish I could do more for David my oldest son.

I don't take day to day for granted anymore. I see,hear,smell,taste and touch everything differently then I ever did. I appreciate the small things alot more then I ever did.

I am trying with all my might to appreciate the good words and take one step at a time, one day at a time.